Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Korea, Day 69; i am in Korea.

Busan 2013
i guess i don't really know how to name this post. i've been to and back from Busan the past weekend but i've been more distracted by my ankle then anything else. and it's really depressing and i'm trying not to let it get to me but it's so hard. because it disrupted my routine of 2 months and i was suddenly thrown into a state of confusion and i felt a little lost. it was to a point that i begun questioning myself. what am i doing in Korea? and then there's that bondage. that you worry about when you travel. walking too much. should i paste a salonpas today? is the cold one better or the hot one? is it swollen today? it's been a month. there must be something wrong. but Severance Hospital (which they say is one of the best hospitals in Korea,) says that it's a mild sprain and i just need to rest. I HAVE BEEN RESTING. what's going on. and i really wish i was back in SG. look for Dr Ng and have him tell me what is really going on.

Pastor Christian said that all mental illnesses stems from anxiety. and i have been feeling a hell lot of anxiety this week. and then my tutees' parent texted me all the way from Singapore, to check how i was doing. i said i was good, but i need prayers for my ankle. the reply came, telling me
 Cast all your cares on HIM, for He cares for you 
1 Peter 5:7 

what a timely reminder. 

also, just a random throwback because i miss my family. i miss traveling with them.

and Europe

PS. check out how the weight loss/gain for me/my brother hehe.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Korea, Day 63; Happy 2-Monthsary Korea.

Cafe Arvo; Green Tea Latte
it's been about two months since i've been in Korea. by dates at least. since i arrived on the 22nd of August.. and it's 23rd October now. 9 weeks today, to be exact. and i am sitting in a small cafe somewhere near the dorm, having a cup of hot green tea latte, planning my schedule, studying for my midterm tomorrow and not yet feeling excited for Busan on Friday.

i'm just really distracted by my ankle and the fact that i can't finish the choreography properly. or practice. i stopped practicing since last Thursday's class, intending to suspend classes for awhile from yesterday, only to be told that i need to call a day in advance. it was a good thing i was on my way anyway, and went down to attend class since my attendance was taken anyway. to my shock, there was no one in class. SSN saw me and literally went 다이앤! apparently i was the only one who turned up.. when i had originally intended to turn up just to watch. but now i had to dance. so it was almost like a one to one class for me. she asked if my ankle was okay. i didn't feel the pain anymore while stretching. less anyway. so i went ahead. i regretted after that. my ankle started swelling again. i knew in my guts then if i continued into the second class, i'll probably be back to square one, or the swell would be terrible and i may limp back from Sinchon again lolol. so i obediently sat at the back to watch instead. only to feel increasingly depressed as i saw them progressing a quarter of the choreo. how on earth was i going to catch up without being able to practice? sigh. and there goes another incomplete choreography for me. being bounded was so incredibly depressing. people would probably think that i'm exaggerating. how can it be that dramatic? IT IS. 

and it's not because i am #inkorea. i guess we take so many of our everyday routine for granted we don't even notice how essential and crucial they are. it's like being able to shower without avoiding an open wound. i think that's the best analogy i can give. you'd know if you've tried showering with an open wound. ok.

anyhow. i've suspended my classes. i hope i have enough time to recover.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Korea, Day 59; my funny foot

16 October 2013: Severance Hospital
 Visit a Korean Hospital 
 Visit one of Korea's best hospitals
 Drink free coffee in the waiting room

seriously. the waiting area at Severance Hospital didn't smell anything like a hospital would. no sterile scents, nothing. it smelt like coffee. YES. #onlyinkorea - tell me about it. IT SMELT OF COFFEE. and so i found a coffee machine at the waiting area serving free coffee. that's how strong the coffee culture in Korea is these days.

okay a little backstory:

so apparently i injured my ankle when i tripped in a cave at Jeju about two weeks back. the pain only came the day after and i thought it'd go away after it swelled the second night at Jeju. the pain only came when i exert strength on my right ankle and i thought it'd go away after awhile. back in Seoul, i continued with my dance classes. the first class was fine, i just couldn't do a couple of stretches on the ground. by the end of the second class, i knew there was something wrong. the muscle in my ankle burned and i could feel it being funny when i walked. one week after, the pain moved to my leg and the front of my foot when i was walking, particularly after dance. i literally limped my way back from Sinchon. last Tuesday (15 October 2013), i couldn't do the footwork for the chorus of the choreography. i left class feeling worried. i had been icing it the nights before. i met Yooran on the way out who asked about my ankle, after which she told me that 선생님 was good at such injuries and knowing such stuff and that i should ask him. he came out at that moment and i got Yooran to translate for me. he asked a couple of questions then pointed to the steps. for a moment i thought he wanted me to walk up the steps to feel if there's pain. hahahaha. but it was apparently to get me to sit. so i did and he lifted my foot. that was when i realised my ankle had already started to swell up again. he removed my shoe *cue awkward moment* and told me to yell if it hurts. at that moment i really felt like all these Korean Drama scenes that we watch, they really belong to Korea 만. it was such a scene out of a Korean Drama. hahaha. that aside, i was quite touched. i guess it's because i am a foreigner and he has so many students in the class AND our communication is like 20% because he can't speak English and my Korean is broken. so i really didn't expect him to bother i suppose. new-found respect after that. (:

he told me that i needed to rest and not practice. and i asked if i had to go to the hospital (Korea doesn't really have clinics, they only have hospitals if you wanna see a doctor. otherwise you go to a pharmacy.) he said i should because it may worsen.

since the pain continued on the way back, i started to worry and headed straight for Severance Hospital (props that it is part of the Yonsei Campus and it right beside our dorm) on the way back. only the ER was open. so i decided to go back the next morning.

the doctors said it was a mild sprain. the look on their faces when i told them that i was dancing was hilarious.

"you danced with your sprained ankle?"

i just laughed sheepishly. anyhow, they made it clear that i couldn't continue dancing until i stopped feeling the pain. it's more of a strain i feel. and it probably worsened as i continued to dance when i came back. i wished i knew. but the pain wasn't apparent and it wouldn't have stopped me enough.

i don't know, but i was really upset at the thought of having to stop or delay. that would mean an incomplete choreography. i wanted to learn a whole song so bad. and i have been practicing every night possible. i was determined not to suspend regardless. but my parents aren't very happy (yes mom i know you're reading this) and i was vaguely reminded when my brother was overseas and my mom threatened to cut his money supply if he didn't comply to something. it was quite funny. hahaha. and the thought of having an old ankle injury upset me more. so i should be taking a break.. i think. i'm not sure how long.

i tried dancing without using my right ankle on Thursday but it was plain annoying because i couldn't complete the moves properly. and it hurt when i walk. so i stopped, almost completely, not practicing at all. at least it doesn't hurt when i walk now, unless i walk really fast. haha. being injured is depressing. and i'm thrown back to the time with my knee injury when i felt so bounded at times. but that wasn't half as bad. at least it didn't bother me.

i'm being more optimistic about it now anyway. it seems that i can only afford a week delay. so i'm really praying hard for it to recover in a week. the doctors said indefinitely. seriously. -.-.

i even stopped wearing my boots (yes i was still wearing them when my ankle hurt. yes i wish i didn't. i  wish i knew better.) so i'm wearing sneakers with everything now. zzz. can i also mention that i'm worried about all the food i'm eating now that i can't exercise. GAH.

okay that's the end of my foot story. haha. back to clearing assignments~


Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Korea, Day 49; 7 weeks in Korea

7 September 2013: Billy Angel Cake Company
it's been 7 weeks into Korea so here's an obligatory post. ^^ complete with a throwback picture about a month ago.
and strangely, or not so strangely, it's been a week since the last post. flew for Jeju last Friday and got back just on Monday night and we were completely exhausted and i still had to do laundry, finish up my last assignment which was due on the next day. ended up sleeping at 2.30am with class at 9am the next day so i was honestly burnt, especially with dance classes at night. so i slept in this morning a little before getting up to clear my assignments and projects. :(

more school work going on and there are a whole lot of things that i need to do. i'm suddenly wondering if i've enough time in Korea. 

speaking of which, i had the best coffee ever here yesterday before i went for dance.
it is the best coffee ever and i've thought about that cuppa at least a couple of times since i finished it.
which reminds me.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Korea, Day 41;

nostalgia; kopiko - discovered in Seoul, courtesy of my Familia leader

feeling emotionally tired today. received some bad news from home while on the way to small group today. i didn't feel prepared to deal with it and blocked it out - intending to gradually make some sense when i get back to dorm alone at night. i don't even know what and how to feel about it.

i guess it's a painful reminder that life is really short sometimes.

i don't even know what to say anymore. haha.

shall go to bed soon and pray hard that the mozzies don't get me tonight. really have to get me a mosquito mat or risk waking up at 5am from itch and pain again.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Korea, Day 40; my japanese friend.

Dinner @ Pomato
on 17 September, i made a Japanese friend from dance class. she can't speak English, i clearly can't speak Japanese. so we could only converse in Korean. i always thought it was amazing. the very fact that neither of us were Koreans but we can only speak the language to each other and can understand each other.

Emily joined me for dance for the first time today. we got on the train back and somehow bumped into her. it turns out that she stays at Sinchon as well. so the three of us spoke in our fundamental basic Korean for about an hour on the journey back. it was really funny because sometimes we can't understand each other and have to elaborate or analyse in our broken (or at least my broken) Korean. i believe we attracted a lot of stares on the train. three foreigners speaking in Korean. i told her that the people on the train must think that we're really strange. but i didn't care. i liked talking to her. we decided that we should go eat together some time. or go out maybe. (: days like these that i'm immensely grateful that i took up Korean back in Singapore.
i can't believe September is over. it honestly flew right past and i don't seem to remember where it went. i may miss home, but i'm not prepared to leave yet. i haven't had enough of Korea, haven't seen enough. treasuring the next 3 months left.